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Put Your Face In It

by Laura on January 20, 2016

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One of the greatest hockey goalies of all time stopped shots by sticking his bare face in the line of fire. I was listening to an episode of This American Life after dropping off Matt at the airport last night. They talked about the famous Canadian Hockey goalie, Terry Sawchuck, who remains one of the […]




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Writing is really an outlet for me, a way I engage my heart, a way I process the journey with God, especially. I got my writing jumpstart six years when I started writing honestly and vulnerably about my journey as a young missionary who didn’t have a clue and who was barely getting up off […]




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Living The Dream

by Laura on November 20, 2015

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Two weeks ago, I found myself knee-deep in a gripe session to Matt about the realities of my job. Despite my instagram feed which screams of jungles and adventures and motorbikes on beaches, my day-to-day work routine is actually quite mundane, and fairly isolating, most weeks. It’s grants and spreadsheets and a billion emails. It’s […]




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God’s Work Without God

by Laura on February 8, 2015

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It’s entirely possible to do God’s work without God, utterly likely that Spirit-breathed-ministry can morph into self-fueled-effort. This is the way of humanity and most Christian work as I’ve come to see it. Sadly, the same can be said of myself. What started faith-only and desperate-for-Jesus slid subtly over time into action-driven and next-step-logical. And I’m just […]




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Tending Graves

by Laura on February 3, 2015

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“The resurrection life you received from God is not a TIMID, GRAVE-TENDING LIFE. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a child-like, ‘What’s next, Papa?’ “(Romans 8, The Message) The last eight months, since we stepped foot on Asian soil, have felt a little like navigating active land mine fields– unexpected detonations becoming more common than […]




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Dear Friends, It’s been a long while since I’ve written, and I hope that this post will explain the reasons for my quiet. I actually wrote this back in October, only to have my blog crash for two months and then more life get in the way of posting it until now.  (Funny how the […]




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Bride and Divorce

by Laura on January 28, 2014

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If the Church is really the Bride, I’ll admit I’ve wanted a divorce for a few years now.  She isn’t who I thought she was 20 years ago when I said, “I do.”  She hasn’t been kind, either –to the people outside of her club, to those who question or doubt, to me. And, so, […]




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Is the Purpose of Missions KINGDOM or GOSPEL?

by Laura on January 21, 2014

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“It reminded me of other conversations we’ve had with many in the church-world who’ve said to us essentially, “Why save them from an earthly hell if you can’t save them from an eternal one?” And I’ll be brutally honest, that type of thinking hurts. It hurts that Christians would so quickly write off justice if there’s no […]




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Elementary school was a dream for me until the second grade. In the second grade, a new girl named Wendy moved to town. She was cute with brown curly hair and she quickly set her sights on my best friend, Sarah. What ensued over the next 259 days of the school year was not so […]




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Beware the One-Dimensional Life

by Laura on November 30, 2013

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Beware of the One-Dimensional Life. The seasons when your hours and conversations and energies become hostage to one dictator– however kind, noble or “right” he may be. The gravity of a one-dimensional life is a strong one. It plays balanced for a while, but eventually pulls every conversation into a vortex about itself.  Hopelessly one-sided, […]




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The Mafia and Falling Asleep Anyway

by Laura on October 9, 2013

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Perhaps I’m an adrenaline junkie. 15 months ago, my husband texted me, “I’m working a case involving the mafia.” And I can remember the holy ground that was my bedroom when I read that sentence on my computer screen; it was one of those late nights, after kids were in bed,  just me and Him. […]




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