Spectacular

by Laura on November 21, 2012

I haven’t written in a while because I haven’t been able to think-up anything dramatic.

I’ve been looking for some tear-jerker moment, some exotic story from my current life, and I keep coming up empty. I’ve been listening and half-writing this-or-that in my head, but I get through the first paragraph, and I can feel myself falling asleep for the mundaneness of it all.

I haven’t written because I’ve wanted to write something spectacular— something that will get the likes and the comments,

and the respect of you.

I guess it was easier to write-dramatic from overseas where there was no end to the exotic stories, people, and landscapes of my daily life. Over in Asia, I wrote about street children selling flowers and my family accidentally eating intestines and the beautiful simplicity of the rice farmers right out my window. And back here in Colorado, all I can think to write about is the lesson I learned from my selfish kid and how hard it is to listen in the busy and how I am still just not getting American church.

And I’m struggling with the non-spectacular nature of this Western life I’ve landed in, and it’s made me go quieter.

Maybe I’ve bought into the false belief that value comes from drama, that my words, if they can’t be beautifully poetic, better be about something big and grand and shocking. Maybe I’ve inched edge-close to the idea that the only stories worth telling are the ones interesting enough to make it in a book or onto a stage. 

And because I don’t assess value, my words become less. And the writing gets harder and more infrequent. And the voices say boring much more than they say important, anyway. 

And then I think about the seasons in a life, how they all work together for good. I think about how a farmer has a wholelottadays of waiting and weeding between the hopeful planting of a seed and the harvest of the crop. 

And I’m reminded again that in writing, in life, the vulnerable speaking-out of a story, even the most mundane of ones, has spectacular value in and of itself.

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Be honest, how boring or how dramatic is your life right now?

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  • http://www.mymusingcorner.wordpress.com/ Lana

    My life is outwardly boring. Inwardly dramatic. How’s that? I mean that very literally.

    • http://www.lauraparkerblog.com/ Laura Parker

      Oh, I like this statement.

      A lot.

      A real-whole lot.

      • Susan Bernstetter

        Laura,

        I know you have lived the spectacular, the unboring….. and so during the ho hum dulldrums of ‘ordinary’ life you may think you have no words of awe inspiring wisdom to share. To uplift the downtrodden or the weary traveler of every day existance(?) by sharing how we daily manage with God’s strength and Word, finding glimpses of Him in the smallest details can be dramatic in and of itself.

        The sidewalk chaulk drawing of a child can stir the most broken heart and therein is the drama.

        God Bless you Laura Parker

        Susan Bernstetter

  • http://www.facebook.com/rachel.p.jones.3 Rachel ‘Pieh’ Jones

    Even in Djibouti it can feel mundane and boring somedays. I forget what things are ‘normal’ and what things aren’t. And then I have to toss a goat leg off the soccer playing field. Or I watch a nicely dressed man light the cigarette of a dread-locked homeless wandering man in the middle of main street, holding up traffic. The first, only in Africa. The second, could have been Minneapolis. Important anyway. So true.

    • http://www.lauraparkerblog.com/ Laura Parker

      Can I just say that the image of you slinging a goat leg off the soccer field made me smile?

      And, yes, you are right– life EVERYWHERE can get mundane. Its the seeing God, grace, the Kingdom even in the boring that I think can be a harder, but maybe even richer?, practice.

      Thanks, Rachel. :)

  • http://www.facebook.com/richelle.wright Richelle Wright

    Laura – I think most of us come here because of you, not because of spectacular… you encourage us to think and to ask questions and to find answers in our God even when the answers don’t make sense. I think that’s pretty spectacular in and of itself.

    Hope you have a lovely Thanksgiving – spectacular in all of its American trappings… filled with love and family and only fun drama!

    • http://www.lauraparkerblog.com/ Laura Parker

      Richelle, your consistent encouragement is consistently an encouragement to me.

      THank you.

      May your holiday be rich with your family, too, friend.

  • Jeni P

    Just want to let you know the dialogue is valuable for me, … the conversation that starts here and continues in my head … friends have dramatic days/dialogue and normal days/dialogue, and they’re both so, so valuable.

    • http://www.lauraparkerblog.com/ Laura Parker

      THanks, Jen. I appreciate the encouragement, grateful that the conversations here mean something to you in your world. That meant a lot to me today–

      Happy Thanksgiving.

  • http://www.angiewashington.com/ Angie Washington

    I get quiet sometimes, too. You are loved, dear Laura.

    • http://www.lauraparkerblog.com/ Laura Parker

      as. are. you.

      hugs from here alllll the way down to Colombia,

      L

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